hoshi ni yuuki ni kioku ni...
kimi no ashiato sagasu...
douka towa no yasuragi...
koko wa yume tochuu e...

no matter where u are, no matter where u live,
i ll always follow u...

the life is like a circle...
it does not meant for eternity, and yet it does not meant for a while only...

for the sake that i was here, writing out the nonsensible...
for the sake that i was here, going through whatever it is that i need to meet in the future...
the challenges,
the future,
the unknown...

it's where the spirit lead us to,
our hope...

may god's divine always be with you...

it's still the test season...
but i touched the computer, bcoz sumone there was breakin...
pieces by pieces i tried to reclaim it... to solve it...
but stupid me was like jux letting myself goin through her words...
to feel the emotions within it, to find the truth...
i cant bear seein her, always the one who suffer...
but as i said, i m not good at givin opinions, that's one of my self-hatred...
all i can do, is jux smile and act like nothin happen... i always do tat...
because even though those unbearable feelings went through my heart, i couldn express them, letting them flow like when the water showered above my head, dripping like thousands of rain stones... so hard... so cold... yet so warm... because deep in my heart, i knew it enclosed my heart, caring me... jux like wat ahmi did...
her feelings flow like the numerous rain stones... sumtin unexplainable by words and alphebelts...
there's an advice i wanted to say, follow ur heart, identify ur most suitable place..
the road has not chosen, u cried all u wan but that only let ur stress and tension ease a bit...
the decision maker is always the hardest thing to do, even when it's only YES or NO...
jux like me... even now, i still dunno wat to do about myself... GO or NOT... ISH...
dun take me as the reason, ahmi... jux do whatever u tink u shud... mayb i am ur key but sumtime i really am not ur key...
ahmi is still my key, sorry for the burden to have me as the lock... hehe... i still depend a lot on u... cause i haven chosen my road...

TMD...
that bitchy woman, she's switch on all my nerves...
damn her...
next time i wont repeat tat anymore...
kill that bitchy woman...
i really cant stand it anymore...
made me cant study my sejarah...
me me used chemistry to calm myself..
soi lagi today dun have LUFFY, and SANA...
arghh...
soi soi soi day,..
everything canceled today... arghhh....

That day....
is my Mother's grandmother side birthday...

as i could also call that as the day of my mother's side reunion...
long time lo didn like tat...
it was like the last reunnion tat i had had was 12 years ago...
pretty long hurh?

cause everytime when we had reunion was always during chinese new year, in which when my family reunion with my father's side...
and finally i saw my grandfather again, mother's side lla... for sooo many years i had n seen him...
he didn change i tink...
jux remain the same, however at first sight after soo long i cant seem to recognize him... haha...
my bad my bad... wari wari...

nothing to comment on, jux pictures that i had capture...

i dunno wat to say...
but there s sumtin that has been trappin me...
our storm hasnt go away...
it's still there, following us here and there...
but, one thing is for sure...
u will always be my best fren...
u will always be within my deep heart..
it's going to be a precious memory...
the mystical memories of us bein together, doin stupid things and stuff...
i knew tis was sumtin i needed to go through...
as god made me meet u, and together we ve been through sooo much, we walked through thousands of adventure, we smiled together, tears rolling over our cheeks together...
i ve always been a shy person, but i hated to admit that fact...
that night, u hugged me, saying that u cant live without me...
i really really was happy with that, but i duno wat to say...
all i can do was smile and say sumtin to calm myself down...
the embrace that u ve gave me...
it's too much for me to handle, because i was shy...
even till now... i am still a shy person...
i ve been realising that there's a wall between us, i tried to hit that wall, but it only crack a bit...
day by day... with more and more effort...
finally, it came to tis...
ahmi, u ll always be my best fren...
even though i dun dare to talk about the taboo between us, but i ll crash that taboo out and continue with our tomorrow...
and that necklace that we bought togethere, it's the symbol of our friendship...
that 's y i wear it everyday... i never told u tat but i ll jot it down here...
i am still shy... haha... i used my smile to cover it... i wonder if u realised the truth behind sum of my smile or not...
never mind if u dun... at least u ll noe from now... mayb...
i hate to say tis but, there's only a few months of middle skul life left.. let's cherish it together!!!!

PS: i tink the words are too bright... but it s the colour of our necklace...

Fyulong from 07-ghost, said tat...

All things born into this world,
are promise by the chief of heaven,
to live until obtaining their dreams,
and live according to their own will.
Within that,
true happiness is not somthing
which is granted by others,
it is whithin that a person chooses for himself.
Accept everything.
The thing called LIFE is precious.

guess i wont be seeing u soon...
since SPM is around he corner...
i cant seem to visit u as i always did...
I hate this spm thingy...
but i think everyone needs to overcome this...
like they said, XIAN KU HOU TIAN...
i wonder when will the bitters over...
guess it wont be very soon..
as i m only 17...
turning 17...
a teen...
a young adult...
still, three more months left...
and then my future will slightly be decided by my results...
i dun have lots of confident as i have , reight now, in my archery...
study is another matter, not even the tiniest bit of familiarity as archery...
i hate study, but that's my job as a student...
i wonder what was my before-life...
a witch, as i like magical thing...
a bird, as i like to fly freely...
a king, as i like the golds and money...
a princess, as i like the royal life...
or a nobody, as i like not being in this world...