Poison Wish: Bump Bump

Poison Wish: Bump Bump
whose ur ex-crush for that two weeks?? who who who who who~~~

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rocks, paper, scissors, clips, pencil, eraser, books, lamps, fan, cups, spoon, fork, table, pot, etc......

every time things just goes the other way round...

not once have it been according to will or intention...

wishes don't come true when one only clasped their hand and do nothing...

dreams won't come true when one only sleep on his or her bed while closing their eyes....

two years ago i've been saying like: two years later i'll make sure i'll get it...

two years after that i was like: i really hope that i am not where i am now....

i gained and lose something at the same time...

aaahhh, everyone has that, the gain-and-lose thing, or the gain-or-lose thing...

whatever, it's still the same...

i gained:

sdo

study life

life without the burning sun

airconds whole day etc

i lose:

archery

UN/IN/DISstudy life

life with burning sun

sweating whole day etc

through calculations, both are basically equal actually...( i've no idea how did i calculate... sixth sense hurh??)

back to six or more months ago, i could have defended my mum and said that i still want to continue that A-B-A stuff if it werent for my laziness and my willingness into S-S-S...

memories of those moments always flow INSIDE my mind...

but mum kept on saying that: u're not the kind who fits into A-B-A...

and i actually TELAN it instead of MUNTAH it...

which i regret now....

if A-B-A doesn't fit into me, then what does???

now i began doubting myself,

pharmacy, was it really a good choice for me??

isn't that my mum's idea too instead of mine???

then what's my intention actually??

I DUNNO~~~

I DUNNO~~~

I DUNNO~~~

there's actually some of me, who still actualy wants to join their fun...

SDO is counted as the first thing which i have actually have a lot of first thing happened...

sounds blur right??

nah~~

during sdo, i've used up my real $$$ until almost rm1k, i've given my numbers to my sdo friends, i used webcam( finally), i got angered with the incidents happened inside...etc...

however, A-B-A is also one of first thing i've got my first thing on... @@

A-B-A: i made my parents spent around rm10k for the whole journey, i've been leaving my hometown and living my life with friends without parents controlling for quite a while, FUN...

it's all about 怀念 i've been talking about...

self-hate now....

but one cant hate ourself...

want this want that in the end always get nothing....

urghh...

life sucks!!! right??

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A-B-A stands for archery-bow-arrows....(lame.....)

S-S-S stands for sleep-study-Sdo.....( my mind got unwired)

Life S-U-C-K-S~~~~~~~~~~