It hurts....

i m feeling sooo down....
maybe i was missing my xdo life...
or maybe there are other sources that makes me hurt like this...
i dun wan2 talk about it because i m not prepared for it...
the heart does hurt...
i wonder why...
it's so hard to breath...
i wonder why...
no one can explain...
and i dun wan anyone to explain...
i hate thinking bout it...
dun talk bout it to me...
act like u didn see this...
dun remind me bout it...
i wanted to get rid of it...
the whole day...
i feel so weird...
the pain, gathered and clumped together...
it stuck in my veins...
making it hard for the blood to flow...
making me hard to breath...
i m suffocated...
i dun like this feeling...
even though it's a present it's also a hell for me...
from the heaven to the abyss...
i dun like it...
it hurts...
my heart ache...
please dun ask me about it...
just let it be...
do not mention it in front of me...
i hate it...