it's still the test season...
but i touched the computer, bcoz sumone there was breakin...
pieces by pieces i tried to reclaim it... to solve it...
but stupid me was like jux letting myself goin through her words...
to feel the emotions within it, to find the truth...
i cant bear seein her, always the one who suffer...
but as i said, i m not good at givin opinions, that's one of my self-hatred...
all i can do, is jux smile and act like nothin happen... i always do tat...
because even though those unbearable feelings went through my heart, i couldn express them, letting them flow like when the water showered above my head, dripping like thousands of rain stones... so hard... so cold... yet so warm... because deep in my heart, i knew it enclosed my heart, caring me... jux like wat ahmi did...
her feelings flow like the numerous rain stones... sumtin unexplainable by words and alphebelts...
there's an advice i wanted to say, follow ur heart, identify ur most suitable place..
the road has not chosen, u cried all u wan but that only let ur stress and tension ease a bit...
the decision maker is always the hardest thing to do, even when it's only YES or NO...
jux like me... even now, i still dunno wat to do about myself... GO or NOT... ISH...
dun take me as the reason, ahmi... jux do whatever u tink u shud... mayb i am ur key but sumtime i really am not ur key...
ahmi is still my key, sorry for the burden to have me as the lock... hehe... i still depend a lot on u... cause i haven chosen my road...