but, even a short message can bring joy.

all i need is some alphabelts...
but it seems that the realisation hasn't came...
maybe it will never be noticed...
as a kid can do nothing but play, act naughty...
once an adult befall themselves into such immature world,
all shall only receive, nothing...
living in this endless world with such,
one would rather not try...
perhaps it's too late, when one has fallen into such calamity...
regretting won't do anything...
erasing will be the best solution...
but, what has been marked shall not disappear easily...
if only time is able to turn back, there wont be any if only...

there's this never end world...
destiny is all one could say bout anything happened or happening...
merry world is what one have always wanted...
just a short message could have bring one to joy in heaven...

It hurts....

i m feeling sooo down....
maybe i was missing my xdo life...
or maybe there are other sources that makes me hurt like this...
i dun wan2 talk about it because i m not prepared for it...
the heart does hurt...
i wonder why...
it's so hard to breath...
i wonder why...
no one can explain...
and i dun wan anyone to explain...
i hate thinking bout it...
dun talk bout it to me...
act like u didn see this...
dun remind me bout it...
i wanted to get rid of it...
the whole day...
i feel so weird...
the pain, gathered and clumped together...
it stuck in my veins...
making it hard for the blood to flow...
making me hard to breath...
i m suffocated...
i dun like this feeling...
even though it's a present it's also a hell for me...
from the heaven to the abyss...
i dun like it...
it hurts...
my heart ache...
please dun ask me about it...
just let it be...
do not mention it in front of me...
i hate it...