ever since that day~~

It' has been a long time ever since i came back...
For this lot's of incidents have happened...
Life changes everything...
Time speeds up very rapidly... Wonder Why?
Have I changed?? Or have i lost my track of time??
All i did these past few months, was just sticking my eyes on the laptop..
Playing certain game which i have no need to mention...
Addiction sure is a cruel poison...
I've spent my three months, doing the same thing, walking in the labyrinth..
Just like a Maze, I turned into this and that route, searching for something...
yet what beholds me, was just the same game, meaningless to my real life...
I sought for the reason of my life, yet i found nothing...
Or, have i been searching truthfully??
What was I doing those days?
The meaning of my life was nowhere to be seen...
And yet It's searching for me, i knew it was..
The time hasn't reach...
It's may be just around the corner, or maybe a few thousand miles away...
I want my life to be simple.
I want my life to be single.
I want my life to be successful.
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Well, who doesn't want it??

PS: Just simply jumble out everything that came out without any organisation.. XD

Adieu^^

but, even a short message can bring joy.

all i need is some alphabelts...
but it seems that the realisation hasn't came...
maybe it will never be noticed...
as a kid can do nothing but play, act naughty...
once an adult befall themselves into such immature world,
all shall only receive, nothing...
living in this endless world with such,
one would rather not try...
perhaps it's too late, when one has fallen into such calamity...
regretting won't do anything...
erasing will be the best solution...
but, what has been marked shall not disappear easily...
if only time is able to turn back, there wont be any if only...

there's this never end world...
destiny is all one could say bout anything happened or happening...
merry world is what one have always wanted...
just a short message could have bring one to joy in heaven...

It hurts....

i m feeling sooo down....
maybe i was missing my xdo life...
or maybe there are other sources that makes me hurt like this...
i dun wan2 talk about it because i m not prepared for it...
the heart does hurt...
i wonder why...
it's so hard to breath...
i wonder why...
no one can explain...
and i dun wan anyone to explain...
i hate thinking bout it...
dun talk bout it to me...
act like u didn see this...
dun remind me bout it...
i wanted to get rid of it...
the whole day...
i feel so weird...
the pain, gathered and clumped together...
it stuck in my veins...
making it hard for the blood to flow...
making me hard to breath...
i m suffocated...
i dun like this feeling...
even though it's a present it's also a hell for me...
from the heaven to the abyss...
i dun like it...
it hurts...
my heart ache...
please dun ask me about it...
just let it be...
do not mention it in front of me...
i hate it...

无所不缺，有缺

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到处都是0.
太闲空绝非好事。
就像现在一样，无所事事。
单单面对这平面图都觉得日子好难过，干脆去死。。
没啦。。。
厌倦这几天没头尾地过活。。。
怀念那有目标的日子。。。
该死的怪理念。。。
空洞的日子比地狱来的难熬，虽然没见过地狱。
什么都有但什么都没有的感觉，好讽刺。
缺少了什么，心知肚明。
笔记不下来。
只知道心里有空洞。。
太无聊了！

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吃一堑，长一智

懊恼，在于不明白他人的想法
感伤，只因我选择离开了他
悲伤，是因为还爱着他
后悔，全都怪与他

我很傻，但也不傻
人，总不能事事顺利
人，总不能一切顺心
人，总不能打败光阴
人，始终得面对事实

那燃烧的火焰
那炽热的心情
那不灭的纯情
那高涨的情绪

我懊恼的，感伤的，悲伤的，后悔的。。。

最终，还是得抛弃他。。。

决心，信心，一切澎湃的心理。。。

搜藏起来！搜藏起来！
打败他，超越他，胜于他！
藏好他，收好他，管好他！
珍惜他，想好他，应用他！

我转，我绕，我跳！
我决定了！
我得好好利用它！
那时光所累积起来的经验。。。

心，始终有点小创伤。
没办法，
事事非愿，
再见了，我的爱。。。