奇怪的男人！

自从那天下到都市区去逛街后，那时就有点怪怪的了。

没吃你已将开玩笑的很多时候，其实都是真的吧。

觉得自己颓废觉得自己懒，觉得自己没用觉得自己傻。

你的无所谓你的挣扎，你的默不作声你的举动。

各个，我都看在眼里，只是都没有留意。

很奇怪，这感觉很奇怪。

那天半夜你肯过来找我，我很欣慰，很感谢。

你笑着叫我'还不睡觉？快点睡。'

可是之后你又问我，‘你不想知道我干嘛不理你？’

想啊。。想到现在一起来都在想啊。只是等你想开口而已。。

或许我烦。。

女人最厉害的其中一点就是觉得自己很烦。。

差不多每天叫你带我出去吃，午睡被我吵醒叫出去吃。。早餐被我叫醒出去吃。。

自己想到都烦。。

昨天早晨把你拉醒，你就苦着脸带我出去，晚上苦着脸对我说话。我闭嘴。。

你又不告诉我发生什么事，男人的心思宇宙深比女人的心思海底捞针来的深。。

你们除了肚子饿叫饿，性欲强就性幻想，原来还会像女人一样‘来月经’。。

遇到挫折就想些什么不三不四的颓废想法。。

当初决定在一起的时候就应该知道，是是不可能如愿，什么都会发生，需要的是双方的努力和上进心，互相加油的坚持一段感情。。

疮疤即使能化妆遮掩，洗掉了却又能看见。

First post in 2012, and it's already february

Happy Valentine's Day Bby. <3

Mr blog has missed out a load of details regarding my life in university and whatever changes that has occured.

Here are some updates about me:-

1. I passed my exams( THANK GOD).

2. I broke up with my ex about 3 months ago.

3. I made myself a new boyfriend and he's super duper nice and sometimes a badass =P

4. I lost my SAMSUNG GALAXY S2 just FEW DAYS BEFORE CNY!

5. I bought myself a new lousy phone SAMSUNG GALAXY ACEEEEEEE. DOWNGRADED!!! =(

6. I've moved into a new room, a single ensuite bathroom's room.. ==?

7. There's a day when there's a combo of THREE COCKROACHES crawling into my room from I-AM-NOT-SURE-WHERE.

8. I gained weight?

9. I am now into First year 2nd Semester of Pharmacy Course.

10. I've just celebrated my Valentine's Day with my Boy =3

Basically i summarised the major events occurring in the past 4 and a half months AHAHAHA...

Well, surely i'll write into details if i am bored enough and i have time =D Adieu~

Lost

Lol Vain? No. I'm Lost.

I feel lost.
Should i blame on the pms again?
Yeah maybe i should or i am just trying to let things out during this 'season'.
This is just the start of my uni life.
Been fed up with those cafeteria's food within this stay of just a mere ten days.
The first week of my lectures are all kind of boring.
Most of the lecturers are local.
My personal tutor is a uk-bort niger Dr Yvonne.
There's this professional skill lecture which is the most boring of all.
Most of the night we are either wasting our time in the SA( Student Association) building, Paul's room, Computer Lab and yada yada yada...
And tonight i tend to not sleep sooo early because someone has been on my mind the whole day. Lot's of thoughts are counter-crossing inside my puny brain and i can't recall what i have been thinking about.

I told you i am lost so i don't know what am i jotting down over here.

Call it Mrs, PMS. As Usual

I said i wouldn't want to call you liao since you are soo busy these few days.
And then you said 'Don't like that larh'.

I said i don't know wat time you are free.
You said 'I'm free i ll tell you. I'm free from 8 to 10'

I said I am not free around that time because most of my classes ends at around 5 and then i'll have to exercise for around 1 hour, dinner for around one hour, shower and washing clothes and do some HOMEWORK for around 2hours. in the end, i'll only be available at after 10.30pm at least.
Then you said:' oh, okay, i prefer to msn though.'

But through msn, i'll have to wait for you to reply me. You are always doing some other things when you are chatting such as chat with another few more friends, watched youtube videos, reading your 9gags, read mangas, streaming animes, organising dota games and in a blue moon doing your assignments etc etc etc...

If i call you, i'll be more at ease, knowing that you are focusing on our chat more instead of doing some other things. Besides, it's me the one who normally made the calls, things should have been the other way round in normal couple routine, well at least on balance, if you want to call the boys-and-girls-are-equal quote.

I mean, it's just a matter of five bucks, or ten bucks, or fifteen bucks, or at most thirty bucks, like for A MONTH, since you are such a great-phone-credit-user.

Ohya, Some things arent suppose to be told. They are supposed to be kept inside the heart, let mr. TIME eat them all up. But what if Mr. TIME cant erase them and things just kept on getting stacked up into a mountain full of 'Useless'-thoughts-volcanoe? Wont there be even greater disasters?

I've always been holding up my feelings, trying not to pressurize you when you are with me, have always been 'jaga-ing' your feelings. Making you as happy as you can with all my mighty-puny-heart.

Whenever i have problems regarding you, i have always been keeping it to myself. Only when you made me worry and furious and all-the-negative-things( in my opinion)-you-did combine into one until i cannot withstand it all alone then i'll seek out for other people's help. Like talk to them, or find something crazy or happpier to do RATHER THAN to think about you.

Well i might be having pms, so blame it on pms, as usual.

Leaving...

Soon, My Uni life is gonna start.
And that means i was having farewell gatherings and dinners and all that.
Most importantly, I'll be leaving Miri.
Separating with my love ones.
Shoppings, Meet-ups, Dinners, Gatherings, Packing....
The last few days in Miri are quite tiresome lol...
Physically, as well as mentally.

Been helding back my feelings. Been going out with my beloved ones. Been spending time with him as much as possible. Been asked not to look back when i walk into the departure hall.

Whenever I look at those items he gave me, I have to keep a hold of myself.
Oh Gosh, I am just going to Kl larh. But why is it so sad lol?
Truthfully, the reason for being so emotional isbecauseofnotbeingabletostaybyhissidewheneverhewantsanymore.

Well, Here's what i wanna tell you.

Baby, okay i'll promise you i'll not look back when i walk into the departure hall. I'll try to stay as calm as possible as if i am just going for a vacation and you are gonna receive some candies when i come back from my vacation. So, remain a good boy kay baby?
Don't you dare naughty naughty with anyone and you guai guai kay? Don't make me worry. Study as wise as possible kay? When you are really really very stress up you can do whatever you think is right to relief yourself but i'd prefer you spam your stress on your computer. =X Don't you dare emo when i leave miri kay? If you emo i'll be even more emo and you should have known that very well.
I want my baby to stay sot sot and a bit wrong-wired. Be cheerful and be my cheeky chapie. Read your 9gags and stay kiddish. Even though i am not physically with you and that's the truth that sadden us the most but still I am always there for you.

I love you and will always do. =3