好久没有来到这里。 
今天心血来潮，也是因为心情不好，也是某个男人所带来的烦躁。
平时我很忍让，今天我不行了。必须要把它写出来。
满脑子都是一大堆的埋怨。太多了我都不知从何写起。
这个星期，我都没什么和你相处到。别说这个星期，应该说这个学期起，还说什么你在学习方面会有所改善，但我看到的，却是你一样的懒散，只是多家了一个锻炼身体的活动，减少了打dota的时间。对待女朋友方面，你则是越来越差劲。 比方说以前，都说以前了，你还会讲什么不可以一个人走回来之类的，会担心。可你都没有做到，最近，我都不知自己来回走了好几次，而你都在那里睡觉。每天都在睡，我起来你睡觉。我忍。。
今天，我只是需要你在我去买点菜，好让我们晚餐有的好在家吃。可你，睡到好迟，讲什么要去游泳，叫XXXX载啦。。 我说车又不是他的，你应什么还不是一样。你说，哪来的一样？你当我男朋友当假的啊？
之后你竟然sms问我什么，COOK HOME? 我那来的食材煮啊你都没带我去买。 在之前你又跟家里的人有了一点争执，搞到现在好像要在同一张饭桌上吃东西都不能。你还真是有点固执，非要把事情搞到这么僵。说什么划清界限，几岁了还搞这种幼稚的东西。你是不是需要别人来开导你？
每次出去，你都是出了再说，回来了也是空手回来。 只有那几次，你买一包面给我，和我一起吃好吃的鸡饭，第一次情人节的一朵花，买蛋挞回家。你给我的惊喜和浪漫，用手指头都数的完。你每个礼拜出去的数量都有一两次，和你在一起差不多快要一年半了你给我的浪漫和惊喜也只有那几次。女人偶尔需要一丁点的浪漫和惊喜，才能够保持住爱情的热量。
这个星期，我们俩都没什么出去到。身边的一个朋友，每个礼拜都能够有两人单独出去的时间，出去逛逛，出去吃好吃的，出去唱K。你则是应我，没钱，无聊，脚累。我体谅你，但是，我羡慕她，因为她可以，而我却不能。

想和你分，是因为你的不改善反而变本加厉的事情，不想和你分，是因为我还爱你，喜欢你，等着你的改善。

奇怪的男人！

自从那天下到都市区去逛街后，那时就有点怪怪的了。

没吃你已将开玩笑的很多时候，其实都是真的吧。

觉得自己颓废觉得自己懒，觉得自己没用觉得自己傻。

你的无所谓你的挣扎，你的默不作声你的举动。

各个，我都看在眼里，只是都没有留意。

很奇怪，这感觉很奇怪。

那天半夜你肯过来找我，我很欣慰，很感谢。

你笑着叫我'还不睡觉？快点睡。'

可是之后你又问我，‘你不想知道我干嘛不理你？’

想啊。。想到现在一起来都在想啊。只是等你想开口而已。。

或许我烦。。

女人最厉害的其中一点就是觉得自己很烦。。

差不多每天叫你带我出去吃，午睡被我吵醒叫出去吃。。早餐被我叫醒出去吃。。

自己想到都烦。。

昨天早晨把你拉醒，你就苦着脸带我出去，晚上苦着脸对我说话。我闭嘴。。

你又不告诉我发生什么事，男人的心思宇宙深比女人的心思海底捞针来的深。。

你们除了肚子饿叫饿，性欲强就性幻想，原来还会像女人一样‘来月经’。。

遇到挫折就想些什么不三不四的颓废想法。。

当初决定在一起的时候就应该知道，是是不可能如愿，什么都会发生，需要的是双方的努力和上进心，互相加油的坚持一段感情。。

疮疤即使能化妆遮掩，洗掉了却又能看见。

First post in 2012, and it's already february

Happy Valentine's Day Bby. <3

Mr blog has missed out a load of details regarding my life in university and whatever changes that has occured.

Here are some updates about me:-

1. I passed my exams( THANK GOD).

2. I broke up with my ex about 3 months ago.

3. I made myself a new boyfriend and he's super duper nice and sometimes a badass =P

4. I lost my SAMSUNG GALAXY S2 just FEW DAYS BEFORE CNY!

5. I bought myself a new lousy phone SAMSUNG GALAXY ACEEEEEEE. DOWNGRADED!!! =(

6. I've moved into a new room, a single ensuite bathroom's room.. ==?

7. There's a day when there's a combo of THREE COCKROACHES crawling into my room from I-AM-NOT-SURE-WHERE.

8. I gained weight?

9. I am now into First year 2nd Semester of Pharmacy Course.

10. I've just celebrated my Valentine's Day with my Boy =3

Basically i summarised the major events occurring in the past 4 and a half months AHAHAHA...

Well, surely i'll write into details if i am bored enough and i have time =D Adieu~

Lost

Lol Vain? No. I'm Lost.

I feel lost.
Should i blame on the pms again?
Yeah maybe i should or i am just trying to let things out during this 'season'.
This is just the start of my uni life.
Been fed up with those cafeteria's food within this stay of just a mere ten days.
The first week of my lectures are all kind of boring.
Most of the lecturers are local.
My personal tutor is a uk-bort niger Dr Yvonne.
There's this professional skill lecture which is the most boring of all.
Most of the night we are either wasting our time in the SA( Student Association) building, Paul's room, Computer Lab and yada yada yada...
And tonight i tend to not sleep sooo early because someone has been on my mind the whole day. Lot's of thoughts are counter-crossing inside my puny brain and i can't recall what i have been thinking about.

I told you i am lost so i don't know what am i jotting down over here.

Call it Mrs, PMS. As Usual

I said i wouldn't want to call you liao since you are soo busy these few days.
And then you said 'Don't like that larh'.

I said i don't know wat time you are free.
You said 'I'm free i ll tell you. I'm free from 8 to 10'

I said I am not free around that time because most of my classes ends at around 5 and then i'll have to exercise for around 1 hour, dinner for around one hour, shower and washing clothes and do some HOMEWORK for around 2hours. in the end, i'll only be available at after 10.30pm at least.
Then you said:' oh, okay, i prefer to msn though.'

But through msn, i'll have to wait for you to reply me. You are always doing some other things when you are chatting such as chat with another few more friends, watched youtube videos, reading your 9gags, read mangas, streaming animes, organising dota games and in a blue moon doing your assignments etc etc etc...

If i call you, i'll be more at ease, knowing that you are focusing on our chat more instead of doing some other things. Besides, it's me the one who normally made the calls, things should have been the other way round in normal couple routine, well at least on balance, if you want to call the boys-and-girls-are-equal quote.

I mean, it's just a matter of five bucks, or ten bucks, or fifteen bucks, or at most thirty bucks, like for A MONTH, since you are such a great-phone-credit-user.

Ohya, Some things arent suppose to be told. They are supposed to be kept inside the heart, let mr. TIME eat them all up. But what if Mr. TIME cant erase them and things just kept on getting stacked up into a mountain full of 'Useless'-thoughts-volcanoe? Wont there be even greater disasters?

I've always been holding up my feelings, trying not to pressurize you when you are with me, have always been 'jaga-ing' your feelings. Making you as happy as you can with all my mighty-puny-heart.

Whenever i have problems regarding you, i have always been keeping it to myself. Only when you made me worry and furious and all-the-negative-things( in my opinion)-you-did combine into one until i cannot withstand it all alone then i'll seek out for other people's help. Like talk to them, or find something crazy or happpier to do RATHER THAN to think about you.

Well i might be having pms, so blame it on pms, as usual.