love has always been with me

I was having shower just now, when i heard my mum's excited sound...
i realized i was surrounded by love all the time, from my family especially...
They have been the closest homo sapiens, ever since i was born...
It's true that you'll always get annoyed at, when they nagged at you...
Duh, emotionally things are unavoidable...
unless you are cold-blooded...
But, it's true that i am loved...
Just that we haven't been realizing it...
When young, i was so immature...
whenever mum forced me to study, i showed her sh*tish face..
even untill secondary school, i was still like that...
She's a teacher.
Everyone has this certain mindset that a teacher's child must be very clever and so...
Urghh, I don't like it. So i always blame her...
And I said: I DON't WANT TO BE A TEACHER"S CHILD!!!
>_<
Such immature words I've been saying... XD
However, she still kept on teaching me.. Guided me in science and Maths especially...
No matter how hard-headed I was, she never not paused on explaining facts and methods...
I just simply sit there blank-mindedly, while she continued on her lectures...
I've forgotten whether I really did not listen to her entirely or not...
But, once i calmed down while she's still giveing her lectures, I did listen a bit... A bit only...
Because everytime she gave me knowledge, I was not in the mood to listen to her at all...
Actually I quite pity her... But now i am guilty...
She sooo seriously wanted to teach me whilst I don't listen to her at all..
Mummy, sorry... I didn't listen to you when you teach me Maths... But in the end i still listen to you a bit^^
sorry to waste your time but I am very grateful because It' does helped me a little..^^
But, now I was able to judge right or wrong liao... Sometimes still can't though...
I've no idea since when i started to treat studies more importantly...
It just came out by instinct and i did it automatically..
Maybe it happened when i was in form4, after i've competed in sukma..
Maybe it was those half year of archery training( jan 2008- june 2008) had changed me...
That was a memorable time though... Lot's of thing happened^^
I bet there's not many people who have undergone such half year of experienced...
I'm glad I've got the chance to experience it...
It was a whole six month of no-need-to-study-punya-life, only archery and friends with no family members around^^
Thanks to that.. I think i've changed a little...
I don't know how and when and why, I suddenly know how's the appropriate way to study...
For me only lar~ because everyone have different study method...
I truly agree with the quote PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT^^
But practise the right way!!! not the wrong way!!! judge wrong or right by your own!!!
Why do i said so?? because i realised my spm trial results were getting better...
and then until SPM results came out, it was truly a miracle for me... then i end up with a conclusion, Practice!!!!
Urgh... right after the result came out, i was forced by my parents to apply this apply that... >_<
blablabla~
sometimes i really did thought of why did my results meet all the scholarship's requirement??
I even thought i was SOI... Sot me...
But good thing is, at least my parents were happy... even until now they are still joyful...
I'm glad i make them happy^^
once, my mum joked to me one thing...
SHE SAID: I DID'N EXPECT YOU TO GET SUCH GOOD RESULTS...
@@...speechless...
fine, u're happy...^^ Thumbs-up^^
My dad, who i always less talked with, he always support me from behind..
I am sure he was proud of me^^
that day when my results came out, he called me and asked me about my results...
I only annouced how many A's and B and C to him... then he asked me to tell mummy... whom i've told before he called me... aa... he really care a lot bout me... just that he don't really know how to expressed to me... >_<
So...
Thank you dad... Even when JPA interview that day, you waited for me until i was done...
THank you...
Therefore, I was always loved...
I was loved,
even when mum slapped me(once, maybe she was too mad liao. but i forget why she slapped me because i didn took it seriously^^),
even when she hit me with rotan(always, when i was young),
even when dad hit me with hanger(once or twice, i think it was for me to have a healthy body, forgot liao)..
My turn to get scolded was over( i hope)...
It's my form3 de sis's turn liao...
Whenever i saw her being lectured by my mum, i always say an image of me when i was lectured... soo funny^^
I hope she will know how to judge what's right or wrong as soon as possible... So that mum and dad need'nt worry too much...
XD