One joke. But It's not the same joke to everyone.

Red Joke

when i saw that fact from my friend, i feel like sharing it to my baby.
Well of course it was entirely a joke to me, trying to turn it into a loving joke.

But, it wasn't, for him.

As if i touched wood, i was going to say sorry if he really dislike it.
But then something even more heartbreaking came out from him.

... "save it for someone who deserve it more !" ...

Even without thinking thoroughly about the intention behind the sentence, the words itself pierced directly through my heart.

Maybe if i take it as a joke but.... no way no way.... no matter how many times i look at it... rubbed my eyes... shed my tears away... read through the conversation again and again and again... it's still there... It's true that he just wrote that...

Therefore tears continuously falling along my cheeks onto the table, even while i was resolving with him about that BAD JOKE...

and then all i know was that my heart was doing the thinking, things like, " now then i know i am so unworthy to him ", " after everything i have done he still have that kind of thoughts", "why are you saying that to me, it was actually just a loving joke that i have intended to say". yada yada yada yada...

at least i told him about this. like how that sentence actually meant to me.

Glad you realised it. And i love you still much.

My birthday =3 29.08.1992

It all started off with this boogeyman under my bed by my Baby.

The content of the boogeyman. Lurve it =3

Levi's Voucher and Stage concealer from ahmi~

A cake from Jason's family. =3

A cake from the true label workers. How sweet. LOL with the Ah Lian AHAHA

Having Sushi King with Ahmi~

First Dish, Nachos From Siamese~ I love the crackers.

Yum Yum~

Baby's Main Dish. =3 The Laaaaaaaaaaaaaamb Chop.

Mine. The Cordon Blue Chicken.

The Skinny Boy =3

Eiseh~

Someone's acting cute. =3

The lastly, we went to merdeka mall and watch this zookeeper. There's a monkey in it which looks like him. =3

10.08.2011 We made today special =3

He asked me not to forget about today =3

Today is actually just another normal day.
Been spending my entire morning by watching the drama, 'City Hunter'.

Our outings are normally unplanned. It's like when we feel like going out we go out.

But today we made it special. We announced our relationship to the world( facebook ) HAHA...

No larh, we just spent our time nicely as possible.

We went to Stratos( one of his favourite spots in Miri), then suddenly in the middle of a conversation of going to our next destination which we have not decided, he said:
' Let's go to the beach. '
' Harh? Really? '
' I don't want our outings to always go to the places that i myself only want to go. So, to the beach.'
And then if i am not mistaken, i showed him what i always did when i am the one who literally 'WIN'... a PEACE sign =D

owh maybe, maybe he knows that i love to go beach with him, so he's being a gentlemen today. How sweeeet =3

We went to esplanade, had some chicken butt's, sat on a dead tree trunk, enjoying the sea breeze.

Then we went to tanjung lobang, walked around the seaside, took that sweeet picture and he can't stop talking nonsense stuff which makes me laugh. KID larh u KID!!

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*fill in the blanks*.... AHAHAHAHAHAHA

then we went for our dinner. the Dien Bien Hu... I DUNNO HOW TO SPELL DUN LAUGH AT ME. ='( we sweat during the entire dinner but it was fun and the food is tasty =3

last but not least, we bought Oreo cheesetart from dessert master... OhGosh shouldn have bought that i m growing FATS!

Peace Sign XD

Little days, Big decisions, Different futures.

Where to go and what to do?

4 more days,
to the announcement of my results.

Once the results are known,
I'll have to make my decisions.

Both of which gives me the same career,
But of different learning environment.

One is nearer to my birthplace,
The other one is almost half an Earth radius away.

I want the first one,
definitely not the second one.

I don't wanna leave home too soon,
Not in this kinda condition and mentality.

It's a big decision,
Big enough to worry me up like this.

Such a long days...

Mind-tricking-Letters

These four days has been a long one.
So many choices to make.
So many things to bear.

My result is coming out in another six more days.
There's gonna be lotsa stuffs to do when my result come out.
I hope for an ABB or something higher than that.
But i Don't have really great hopes for it.

My life is destined to be decided by just a mere difference of two letters.
It s either an A more or a B less.
Those letters are playing mind tricks on me.
I don't want my life be decided by just a mere Alphabelt.

Been spending lotsa money on my stuff.
It's actually a preparation for my future four years of uni-life.
Imagine RM900 gone within a day just to buy two stuff.
I was like whoaaaaaaa~

This week...
I am back being an archer again.
The pain that i've once been accompanied being an archer.
The Mates that have been once the important ones during my life as an archer.
The internal mindset that an archer should have.
I actually miss archery.
It was my life during my secondary school years.

These few days is gonna be a long one.
With my period on, and my upcoming announciation of A-level results, and lotsa decision to be made...
I'll be totally exhausted.