Leaving...

Soon, My Uni life is gonna start.
And that means i was having farewell gatherings and dinners and all that.
Most importantly, I'll be leaving Miri.
Separating with my love ones.
Shoppings, Meet-ups, Dinners, Gatherings, Packing....
The last few days in Miri are quite tiresome lol...
Physically, as well as mentally.

Been helding back my feelings. Been going out with my beloved ones. Been spending time with him as much as possible. Been asked not to look back when i walk into the departure hall.

Whenever I look at those items he gave me, I have to keep a hold of myself.
Oh Gosh, I am just going to Kl larh. But why is it so sad lol?
Truthfully, the reason for being so emotional isbecauseofnotbeingabletostaybyhissidewheneverhewantsanymore.

Well, Here's what i wanna tell you.

Baby, okay i'll promise you i'll not look back when i walk into the departure hall. I'll try to stay as calm as possible as if i am just going for a vacation and you are gonna receive some candies when i come back from my vacation. So, remain a good boy kay baby?
Don't you dare naughty naughty with anyone and you guai guai kay? Don't make me worry. Study as wise as possible kay? When you are really really very stress up you can do whatever you think is right to relief yourself but i'd prefer you spam your stress on your computer. =X Don't you dare emo when i leave miri kay? If you emo i'll be even more emo and you should have known that very well.
I want my baby to stay sot sot and a bit wrong-wired. Be cheerful and be my cheeky chapie. Read your 9gags and stay kiddish. Even though i am not physically with you and that's the truth that sadden us the most but still I am always there for you.

I love you and will always do. =3

Gibberish..

Random Picture: Gave me the feeling of having lots of thoughts for the lady

As if i know everything you do, as if i know everything about you.
But in fact i have been guessing the whole time.

What you have been doing?

where have you been?

Did you do something i don't like?

All the wild guesses.

I wanted to know what you did, where you've been.

When a friend of mine sms-ed about you, straight away, i reply him. Because that's the only hint of your whereabout.

But i don't dare to ask more. I don't feel like asking more.

I don't even feel like asking your whereabout. Though i have been struggling with it. Been On and Off for quite a while.

At last i looked for something else which can distract me.

The moment i wrote about this, i can imagine your scent. the sweet scent you have been wearing on your hair.
Looks like i am deeply, in love with this particular guy.
Which i think i shouldn be doing.

Trying to make myself busy is the best option.
But then again you always pop-out of nowhere, distracting me.

I... I... I just have to sort myself a bit now...
Even though it's lovely to have your shadows in every bit of my life, But it turns out to be a disaster as well.

It's not that i am having any negative thoughts regarding our relationships... I don't want to end things at all. That's even stupid.

Maybe this long break is making my brain kinda messed up a bit.

I have no idea with all these gibberish i am typing about. Just feel like getting the mess out of my mind a bit.

Do whatever you think is right. Think whatever you think is wise. This is my solution. It's not concrete but i hope it will stay solid.

One joke. But It's not the same joke to everyone.

Red Joke

when i saw that fact from my friend, i feel like sharing it to my baby.
Well of course it was entirely a joke to me, trying to turn it into a loving joke.

But, it wasn't, for him.

As if i touched wood, i was going to say sorry if he really dislike it.
But then something even more heartbreaking came out from him.

... "save it for someone who deserve it more !" ...

Even without thinking thoroughly about the intention behind the sentence, the words itself pierced directly through my heart.

Maybe if i take it as a joke but.... no way no way.... no matter how many times i look at it... rubbed my eyes... shed my tears away... read through the conversation again and again and again... it's still there... It's true that he just wrote that...

Therefore tears continuously falling along my cheeks onto the table, even while i was resolving with him about that BAD JOKE...

and then all i know was that my heart was doing the thinking, things like, " now then i know i am so unworthy to him ", " after everything i have done he still have that kind of thoughts", "why are you saying that to me, it was actually just a loving joke that i have intended to say". yada yada yada yada...

at least i told him about this. like how that sentence actually meant to me.

Glad you realised it. And i love you still much.

My birthday =3 29.08.1992

It all started off with this boogeyman under my bed by my Baby.

The content of the boogeyman. Lurve it =3

Levi's Voucher and Stage concealer from ahmi~

A cake from Jason's family. =3

A cake from the true label workers. How sweet. LOL with the Ah Lian AHAHA

Having Sushi King with Ahmi~

First Dish, Nachos From Siamese~ I love the crackers.

Yum Yum~

Baby's Main Dish. =3 The Laaaaaaaaaaaaaamb Chop.

Mine. The Cordon Blue Chicken.

The Skinny Boy =3

Eiseh~

Someone's acting cute. =3

The lastly, we went to merdeka mall and watch this zookeeper. There's a monkey in it which looks like him. =3

10.08.2011 We made today special =3

He asked me not to forget about today =3

Today is actually just another normal day.
Been spending my entire morning by watching the drama, 'City Hunter'.

Our outings are normally unplanned. It's like when we feel like going out we go out.

But today we made it special. We announced our relationship to the world( facebook ) HAHA...

No larh, we just spent our time nicely as possible.

We went to Stratos( one of his favourite spots in Miri), then suddenly in the middle of a conversation of going to our next destination which we have not decided, he said:
' Let's go to the beach. '
' Harh? Really? '
' I don't want our outings to always go to the places that i myself only want to go. So, to the beach.'
And then if i am not mistaken, i showed him what i always did when i am the one who literally 'WIN'... a PEACE sign =D

owh maybe, maybe he knows that i love to go beach with him, so he's being a gentlemen today. How sweeeet =3

We went to esplanade, had some chicken butt's, sat on a dead tree trunk, enjoying the sea breeze.

Then we went to tanjung lobang, walked around the seaside, took that sweeet picture and he can't stop talking nonsense stuff which makes me laugh. KID larh u KID!!

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*fill in the blanks*.... AHAHAHAHAHAHA

then we went for our dinner. the Dien Bien Hu... I DUNNO HOW TO SPELL DUN LAUGH AT ME. ='( we sweat during the entire dinner but it was fun and the food is tasty =3

last but not least, we bought Oreo cheesetart from dessert master... OhGosh shouldn have bought that i m growing FATS!

Peace Sign XD